oh its time

well, back to a plain layout. my old one was deactivated because my profile was inactive for more than 90 days. *embarrassed smile*

there are times in life where you just know that it's time to end. whatever it is. it's just the right time. you have to be willing to let go and close that chapter of your life so you can begin a whole new one.

so with that i shall end this blog. writing in this has helped me through alot of difficult times.. more than i could've imagined. but it's time to move on and do something new. a. fresh. new. start.

thus i end this 4 year blog of mine and begin a new one! :) CLICK HERE

tata my blog. my first virtual diary.

15 minute blog

Now it's only 8 minutes because my internet took that long to load the page. Just felt like blogging because 1) it was getting lonely 2) im procrastinating and 3) i feel like writing. So. here it goes.

*6 minutes*

Crap. I told myself i was going to finish this blog before 11pm and start studying. Let's see how good I am at time management. lol, 10:55!

So. you know what? i've been swearing alot lately. It goes against my own moral values i know, but now i realize why people swear. its so liberating (and i figure this out at 18 years old. talk about being a late bloomer. damn). and once you start it can get pretty addicitng. however, after a few liberating days of throwing caution to the wind, my liberation was brought to an abrupt stop a few nights ago. the incident went something like this:

*in the office, kristine and i are doing homework*

kristine: migel, can you help me with this?

*i go over to her but stub my toe on the way*

migel: SH*T! mother-
kristine: migel, stop swearing.
migel: what? i didn't swear. (i honestly didn't realize i was)
kristine: *with all seriousness* you were. please stop. i don't find you awesome anymore.

and so we made deal where i have to pay 20 pesos if ever i swear and she has to pay the same amount if she says the word "awesome" or starts acting all "gangstah" when im around. and honestly, i'm not the type of person who swears so my whole swearing episode was going to phase out sooner or later. what's kinda sad though is the fact that i started swearing so late. LOL, i mean, ppl usually start around 12.. or 13 or something. oh well, i guess it was a phase i had to get over with. PLUS, what person wouldnt want to appear "awesome" to their siblings?? haha


moving on quickly to school (i suck at time management. it's already 11:21. my new goal: 11:25) i love my subjects. they're interesting and i enjoy all the teachers (with the exception of my stat teacher. i sit on the 2nd row and i STILL can't hear his wispy voice. it's no louder than a teaspoon dropping!) and i vow that i shall be the ultimate experate of HIRAGANA when the sem's over!! Gosh, Japanese is so much harder than i thought. it's really really fun though :)


Song i've been listening to lately: Man in the Mirror by MJ

11:23!! yes, i achieved my goal! (sorta)



Rest in Peace Michael Jackson! Music wouldn't have been the way it is today if it weren't for you.

idle thoughts + chicken pops

having come home late from buying a new pair of school shoes, i found myself sitting alone at the kitchen table with a bowl of chicken pops for dinner. having no one to talk to i was left with my thoughts as i absent mindedly munched on my beloved chicken. i don't know how, i don't know why but for some reason my mind lingered on one particular topic: friends. my friends. i realize i have so many people in my life i call friends. people who return my smile when we happen to come across each other; people who I empathize with about wretched teachers and unbelievable work assignments; people i laugh with when we need to relieve the stress; people i talk to about the latest gist and youtube sensations (lol) and the list goes on and on. even though i have a lot of people i call my friends, i only consider a few to be my really close friends. what surprised me though was the realization that they were divided into 3 groups - groups that nurture different parts of my soul and will always have that special place there in the four chambers of the only cardiac muscle of my body.

1) we all have that inner child somewhere deep within us. a lingering memory of the happy moments where we were once carefree, untroubled and light-hearted. the innocent delight of simple wonders was a part of childhood people usually left behind once they got older. what people don't realize is that it's important to keep our innerchild alive. not to be childish, but to be child-like towards the things life has to offer. im blessed to have friends who keep my innerchild alive. when together, i remember what its like to be a child again. i laugh more freely and i look at the world with better eyes. from unicorns to starfish to leprechauns, with them i remember that there just might be magic in this world.

2) have you ever been the person someone goes to when they need to pour their heart out? when listening to their story its an emotional roller coaster because their sadness is your sadness and their joy is your own joy.. to be able to connect with someone like that is something i wouldn't give up for the world. may it be an innate yearning to be part of society or simply a desire to be needed, everyone wants to feel belonged some way or another. such friends make me feel like i belong somewhere even if its just a small part of this world. they need me and i need them. we will always be a family outside my family.

3) and of course, there's always that person or people you feel comfortable enough to spill everything to.. every secret, every mundane detail.. the time flies when you talk because you can talk about anything (and everything) under the sun. from destiny, love and fate to which dip tastes better, honey mustard or garlic parmesan.. you tell them things because you know they'll take you seriously - your hopes and dreams, your fears and doubts - and that they'll offer the truth no matter how painful. such friends help me believe in myself... because they believe in me.

i realize that even though i only have a few close friends, they've given me more than i can have ever imagined. i'll forever be grateful and blessed to have you guys in my life. <3

after all those thoughts, I gaze down at my now nearly empty bowl of chicken pops and realize one more thing --

these chicken pops must be drugged.

summer end

wow, so summer was supposed to end yesterday but because of this whole swine flue epidemic (pandemic?) we get an extra week of summer, which is cool nowww but it's going to cut a week of sembreak or christmas break so i wish school just started already. i already had my mind set and ready for school since last week i had to wake up real early for the first years 4 day orientation progam. but then i find out i have a whole week to bring my mind back to idle-summer mode which'll only make it so mucher harder for me to start school next week cuz i'll be feeling all lazy. grawr.


summer itself on the other hand has been really great :) truly one of the best, i can't believe it's actually ending. it feels like just yesterday we had our IS farewell party but in reality its been what.. nearly 3 months? that phrase "time flies when you're having fun" is an understatement. i learned alot abut myself (like how i tend to sleep in moving vehicles. alot. i honestly never really noticed that before. i guess the fluid movement sort of lulls me to sleep. haha) and learned new things (did you know if you floss twice a day you have greater chances of living up to 100??). also during this summer i've become addicted to the ellen degeneres show. we don't have disney, or hbo (asdfjdka) or hallmark (the biggest loser!) soooooooo i watch ellen degeneres alot :D im such a tv bum.

hmm.. lets see.. things i've done during the summer:

1) got a twitter!
2) enrolled in the gym (bwaha)
3) got my driver's license! woohoo!
4) facilitated the first years (fun stuff)
5) went to the davids concert!
6) ate kukuracha (i have no idea how to spell that.. but it's like crab.. only it looks like a scoripion/alien thing. really and apparently kukuracha is translated to "cockroach". *shiver*)

hmm.. yeah, i was planning on coming up with 10 but its nearly 2am.. so i'll do that later.


all my classes start at 11pm!!!!!!!!! isn't that awesome or what?? :D

:)

time for happy random thoughts.. lol:


- so i met a few people i hadnt seen since the beginning of summer today, i've been missing them terribly. we definitely need more catching-up-on time. haha :)

- i removed the clouds.. cuz i realized that the dimensions are different in each computer sooo it might not look how its supposed to look... im keeping the car though cuz it's fun to watch :D

- the ellen degeneres show is my 2nd most favorite talk show (oprah winfrey being the first). she always has the funny and weirdest things on. for now example, 2 guys are dancing like maniacs and ellen has an expression saying "what-the-heck-are-they-doing??" haha

- i've been waking up at 6am for the past 2 days! to go to the gym. we dont do much though. haha, but it's still a great feeling waking up early in the morning knowing you're going to do something productive with your day

- i have become my parents driver! which is sort of a mixed good-and-bad-feeling if you know what i mean. it's great being behind the wheel alot but when you get tired you still have to keep driving. oh well, nothing's perfect.

- i'm going to be getting supercool shirts real soon! [imlty 1:26! woohoo! haha]

- i told myself i'd get better at dota and try not to die more than 10 times but i have a feeling no matter how many times i practice i'll forever suck at it. (im better at puzzlebob and text twist.. bwaha)

- summer is about catching up on gossip girl, grey's anatomy and prison break. :D

- i think tamala's pregnant. **sob** (okay, so that's not really a happy thought but i had to say it.)

- on the brighter side, that means puppies! anyone want?

- david cook and david archuleta are coming to manila!!! woohoo!

- im thinking of celebrating mardi gras again because summer's getting boring.

- my cousin's singing now.. lol, he sounds like a toad croaking. HAHA, he wont believe me though.

- we have an amazing supply of stikko (stik-o? stikk-oh? i dont know how its spelt) yummy :)

- it's raining. yay :)





today im happy. it's a happy day. :]

summer recap

im getting fat. but whatever. it's summer and im allowed to have mcdonalds 6 times a week right? okay no. i know it's not good. the mcflurry and large fries i just had will be the last! i swear. no no, let's not go as far as swearing. let's just say i wont eat mcdonalds for a while. i was getting tired of it anyway. it's time to hit the pool!!

moving on. so i had the sudden urge to write. like i sometimes have the urge to play soccer. call it a craving if you will. i also crave for violin! my gosh, i really wanna play. my fingers itch like how my legs sometimes itch when i long for a grassy field, 2 goal posts and a soccer ball. and i crave for david cook! but i'll be able to satisfy that craving soon. bwahaha

so summer! days of lounging about and doing nothing. i said i'd do something productive but really, i havent been doing anything like that. i've been reading aLOT though. hmm.. like:

the undomestic goddess - sophie kinsella

every boy's got one - meg cabot

can you keep a secret - sophie kinsella

remember me - sophie kinsella

ghost girl - torey hayden

twilight - stephenie meyer

harry potter 7: deathly hallows - j.k. rowling

new moon - stephenie meyer

the holiday - erica james

time traveller's wife - audrey niffenegger

the host - stephenie meyer

harry potter 2: chamber of secrets - j.k. rowling

eclipse - stephenie meyer

**weehee, sense of accomplishment**

im the type of person who once starts a book HAS to finish it no matter how long it takes. let me tell you, that "ghost girl" book by torey hayden had me squirming in my seat because it was so boring but i finished it! and after i wanted to flush it down the toilet but i didnt... im mean. okay, at the beginning it was really interesting but at the end you find out nothing makes sense and their assumptions were all vague whereas the actual situation was even more ambiguous than their assumptions. but you don't really care about all that do you?;) hahaha, just me letting off a little steam for reading a book that never seemed to end. :D my all time favourite though would have to be "the time traveller's wife"! i read it 3 times already. simply because its awesome. and the way everything is intertwined and connected makes it all the more cooler.

you know what else i've been doing? i've recently discovered the game jamlegend! lol, apparently its an online game similar to guitar hero only you use your keypad. and i've been playing it since the middle of april. im not really into online games but this one can get pretty addicting. but then i stopped a few days ago because it made me realize how.. unproductive i was. hahaha, oh lordie.

darn it, i had other things to say but its gone now. there's only one month left to summer.. but it feels like its just about to start!! summer i mean. may 15 to be exact.. hahaha :D it's going to be exciting and awesome. every single minute. i can feel it!

oh btw, belated happy birthday EX! i know im nearly a month late, but you forgot my birthday too so let's call it even. :D haha

it's summer :)

its summer beibeh! :) gone are the hell-ish weeks of sleep deprivation and incessant procrastination.. now i have 2 whole months of peace and relaxation! (wow, i didn't mean for that to rhyme..) well, i'm actually planning on getting a job (vina! is that writing job thing still available?). i'm not planning on wiling away my summer days until i become a mindless couch potato, i want to do something productive for a change. so! getting a job is the first thing on my list andddddddd.. hmm.. i guess its the only thing on my list so far. i'll probably throw in a bit of tennis and swimming as well :)

so wednesday might've just been the best day of all the 365 days of my 18th year but maybe it's too soon to tell... we'll see :) haha, what i do know for sure though is:

1) i wish all of you guys in manila were there too :( it would've been awesome
2) i HAVE to get back at nikki for making me cry like a total idiot

please remind me next time that when nikki says "i'll get back at you" she really does mean she'll get back at me. i mean it was MONTHS ago when i surprised nikki (and made her cry.. and trip too :D bwahaha, but i didn't plan for her to fall.. she's to blame for not seeing that boundary rope at the airport) with mummy and kristine's surprise visit and i thought she had let it go already. but noooo, apparently she hadn't and she got me back real GOOD. there's only one way i can top this one but i just need the cooperation of a certain someone.. **diabolical laughter**

so right now i have a helium balloon tied to my pinky. i'm torn between my child-like amusement of having it bob up and down behind me when i walk and my desire to inhale the helium and amuse myself by singing songs in that abnormally high, chipmunk-like squeaky voice. i think i inhaled too much helium already though so i'll just let it bob up and down :D (and already my brain cells are going obsolete from lack of use)

yesterday we had our end of school IS batch party! :) im still full from all the food. afterwards i got a massage at one of those 24 hour massage places! i say that with excitement because i've been wanting to get a massage for god knows how long. she worked the stress right out of me. you know what though? i realized something. when my body's really stressed out and i go get a massage i literally black out. i mean, literally black out. i remember the beginning, she was massaging my back.. then the next thing i know she waking me up telling me she's done and a whole hour has passed (even though it only felt like 5 minutes) and i don't remember a thing. is that normal?? my body's still sore though.. hahaha, talk about stress

anyway, so happy holidays everyone! :) i'm off for more cake. yummy :D

its me again

there are sooo many things i want to make happen in my life. one thing, i want to get this kitty here off my background because im getting tired of its cuteness.. everytime i try to change it though the thing messes up :| anyhoo, this is where a lil programming knowledge might come in handy huh? gotta get in touch with my html skills. haha

i feel like enumerating:

- i'm going to find out my international law grade tomorrow o.O
- i'm scared at the end of this sem some people might get real disappointed
- i'm not looking forward to march
- what i AM looking forward to though is summer holidays :D
- i am going to watch star world until the oscars come on again!
- i'm going to be playing dress up later (looking for an asian costume for friday :D)
- i'm going to get a job this summer
- my life wouldn't be the same without the special people who find it normal when i go absolutely crazy
- you know mardi gras? it should be celebrated more often :)
- today's ash wednesday people!
- i drove alot today. (yessssssssssss)
- the rainy weather today was so refreshing :)
- I really want Jepoy Curay to win Miss Gay 2009. His dance was amazing and he did NOT look like a guy. he made me feel so masculine o.O
- I was trying to save money but then I was persuaded into buying this awesome shirt. one word: monster :D
- i can listen to gabe bondoc forever :)





im getting tired of enumerating now.. haha, another day tomorrow.. another day closer to summer holidays! :)

oh the sanguinity

this evening, i was craving for a hot fudge sundae and since tamala hasn't been staying in the house for the past couple of days (she's shedding again) i decided to give us both a little treat. so nowww, she's enjoying a sundae cone while i just finished my hot fudge sundae. (shhhhh, just dont tell anyone i drove... haha :D)


so its the 31st of january.. the last day of the first month of year 2009. time goes by pretty fast huh? but that's okay because i pretty much wont be forgetting what i did the past couple of weeks. see, i decided that for this year, ima be wayy more responsible and everything sooo.. im using this executive diary/planner thing! plus, it was given to me as a token of appreciation or whatever from the embassy for this project ('project citizen') and it'd be such a waste if i just left it unused at the back of my cupboard.. so "me + planner = more responsible!"--> well, that's the plan anyway... I don't know if it's really working.. i hope its working.. I think it's working. :D


a friend told me that based on the chinese zodiac (year of the.. sheep i think), this year won't be a such a good year. its been evidently true so far because a bunch of unfortunate events have been occurring for the past couple of weeks; misfortune id rather not mention so i can try and forget it sooner. there are a bunch of good stuff too though like yeo's party, my nephew's party, finding out i passed the a;lkdsfj;asljd international law exam. oh and stuffing myself with NYPD fries! those fries are unbelievable good. hmm, i put my beliefs in the "law of attraction" though so im actually looking forward to a good year. it's all in the mind beibeh xD haha, apart from that i've actually been feeling really peaceful. im not sad, i could be happier but talking about life in general i cant complain :)


the past couple of weeks i've become a major movie buff! it's not even funny anymore. there're just so many good movies i really wanna watch! i already watched curious case of benjamin button (davao is sooooo late man really) and i can't get over their accents. so cool xD ooh and slumdog millionaire as well. that's an awesome movie. :D i also want to watch doubt, australia, milk, vicky cristina barcelona (penelope cruz and scarlett johansson!), revolutionary road and changeling. oh and confessions of a shopaholic as well! haha, anyway, got to cut this entry short because someone just told me moulin rouge is showing on star movies! (yes, i havent watched that.. hahaha xD)


life is defined by opportunities, even the ones you miss - benjamin button :]

a moment of reflection

after a terrible 2007, i've always considered 2008 as a year to a fresh start, a clean slate, a new beginning. it was a year where i could put all the grieving and sadness behind me and look forward to what lay ahead and i like to believe that's exactly what i did. i was no longer surrounded by people fraught with their silent inconsolable sadness for they too looked to the year 2008 with hope. looking back on this year, i realize that it's been filled with its ups and downs but compared to the events of 2007, i feel blessed that the positive incidences way outbalance the negative. i've found friends in the most unexpected people and i've gotten in touch with a few people i thought i'd never talk to again. so what do you wish for when life's been treating you pretty well? i tend to have alot of wishes for the new year, but right now im just thankful i've been so blessed. i just wish that i'll have this feeling of general contentment throughout 2009. :]

sooo

BELATED HAPPY NEW YEAR PEOPLE!!! i hope yall find whatever your looking for in life. God bless you. :]