my minds all muddled like a rainwater puddle

so it's school again.. and i finally finished my english speech choir thank god! all the panic attacks and **maka-high** moments because of all the rugby used (i don't know how people can get high on rugby, just gave me this awful headache). hahaha, romina saw a small picture of what i went through. :D but in the end it was all worth it. my group mates did amazingly well! woohoo! yay us! xD

ooh, earlier today before i had to go to sm i was listening to the radio and boyceavenue was playing!! i could recognize his voice anywhere. he was playing "bleeding love" :D my gosh, so they've gotten on the radio now have they? that's so amazing :) i also heard another one of their songs on the radio but the title has eluded me temporarily.. oh well, still cool they've gotten this far :)

so i STILL don't know what my grade is in political science... sir said he already has the grades and it's driving me insane because he knows it and i.. ;laksjdf;lkajdf.. DONT. uggh, my life (ok, not my life, but the life of my grades) is precariously balanced on a thin line between OK and NOT okay.. aack!

hmm.. i'm super duper tired.. as in really.. but! i had one more topic in mind.. i kind of forgot about it now.. hmmmm... i don't remember :S maybe it's because i'm tired.. but i have this feeling that i really wanted to talk about it.. but now, i dont remember.. aah

oh well, i think the solitude has gotten to me. yesterday, while i was getting dressed i realized i was actually talking to myself! as in really.. it creeps me out. : thank god i have tamala.. i can talk to her and pretend she's listening to me. BUT! this taste of independence is actually kind of thrilling... to know that you actually have the freedom to test out the dark waters that were once prohibited is exhilirating. what's more exhilirating though is the fact that with the barriers gone, with no more restrictions, i have the chance to find out who i really am. for one thing, i realize that no matter how hard anyone tries to influence me, i have this strong unwavering perspective when it comes to smoking. even though i respect those who do choose to smoke, i've realized with a shocking clarity that i dont want to smoke. ever. i do have the chance to try it out one day and maybe i will, you never know, but now, i have no inclination to want to do anything like that. nonewhatsoever. haha. and i've figured out other things too like how i enjoy being alone at home with a good book to read, or the fact that i've sort of adjusted to this life of newfound responsibilities and though it looked daunting at first, taking on the responsibilities that were on the capable shoulders of my sister before she left to manila isn't as hard as i thought it'd be. :D gosh, this feeling of competence is something. haha

SLEEPOVER DURING SEMBREAK! can't wait xD

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY HANNICA!! LOVE YOU! oxox