total blah-ness

have you ever had an instance where you were seriously expecting something not to happen even though you really wanted it to so you're there preparing yourself for the inevitable disappointment then to be told that it is going to happen so you change your mindset and become very excited only to be told that it really isn't going to happen and since it was all sudden, you didn't have time to prepare yourself and in the end your crushed by the disappointment you were actually preparing yourself for in the first place? (i hope that made sense, i tried to make it as sensible as possible) ughh. i hate it when that happens. i hate the way it feels and the way it makes your day feel all wrong and gloomy for some reason. (and for no use of a better word) it's definitely sucky.

so here i am, trying to cheer myself up by writing on my blog (golly, i do have peculiar ways of cheering myself up) hmm.. my dad gave kristine a camera as an advanced birthday present and we've been having masses of fun with it. it's waterproof (like vina's!) only my sister's too afraid to try it out in water. i guess i would be too if the camera was mine, but it's not so obviously i really want to try it out. we've been experimenting with the macro shot application (macro shots are so cool) and our favourite objects of interest so far have been tamala, nature, tamala, objects and incriminating pics of each other looking weird, blank or downright funny. nikki has the tendency to take millions of pics of me when i'm sleeping because, to be honest, i look extremely scary (i am not going to explain for the sake of our friendship) and i usually end up waking up at the wee hours of the morning (nikki's nocturnal) to her bellows of laughter.



oh, yes, i have something else to share. i finally have my first solo-video on youtube! kristine posted it (with my permission of course though i do have to say i was half-asleep when i said yes) and it is embarrassingggg... so maybe one day when my dignity is not intact and alcohol & drugs rule my life, maybe one day, i'll have the courage to show it to you, but as for now it shall remain as just another video on youtube of a crazy nameless girl doing crazy things at 2am in the morning.

ooh another thing that definitely cheered me up: it just started to rain. :) yes, i love rain, especially if it's only light rain because it's so relaxing to listen too..

hmm... so that's about it :) i think i cheered myself up pretty well actually (for the fact that i didn't resort to chocolates is pretty amazing)