HARRY POTTER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (fan much?)

its here, its finally here! Harry Potter. no people, its not Harry Potter and the value of honesty or Harry Potter and the strength of friendship (yes, our estimations during bio lab were a loong way off from the real answer.. if we were close though i wouldn't have been bothered to read it.. i mean, value of friendship!?!?! come on people..) but instead.. its Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows!! ooh, sounds thrilling in all its mysterious splendor...

the best way to read a book is to sit down comfortably on a nice, big chair with the book in one hand and a frozen mango in another.. yep2x, so that's exactly what i'm gonna do. xD

Harry Potter here i come!!

1st pre lim of the week

i seem fond of writing entries during edp period.. well, anyways, just had our edp pre lim.. gosh, it was ok. they say its like a major thing and everything but it seemed like just another long test... only the stakes are higher having a base of 60 (instead of the usual 50). i mean, its kinda weird hearing that the passing grade is 12 instead of 10 in a 20 item quiz. waa.. oh well, wee can do it!! we're smart bitaw. :P

wahehe






anyways, gotta get back to looking for pics of orlando bloom. no, its not a project..






i just want to ok?





haah :P

just a lil more procrastination

well, 2nd post for the day.. hmm.. im supposed to be studying for the upcoming pre-lims.. but you know.. no matter what i try to tell myself there's always gotta be procrastination, (even if it's just a lil) goin on.. i applaud the people who don't procrastinate.. you guys have will power man

anyways, it's nice my sister's here for the holidays. its not as quiet during the night (matter of fact.. its not quiet at all) and im basically never bored. haha, there' s always something to do. whether its shouting at my sister for having the tv turned on so loud, or studying in the living room instead of my bedroom because she's too scared to play her video games all by herself. plus i have someone to talk to instead of tamala when nikki's at her evening classes! yeyy. :) hahaha, yeah, its loadsa fun actually. haha, us three sister's living together.. hmm, i can get the hang of this :)

onto another topic.. do you guys have cats? where you live? surely you do.. those skinny, anorexic looking scavengers that tend to stare at you with their creepy glow-in-the-dark eyes. no, im not saying i don't like cats. i llooovveee cats. honestly, if i were to choose between a cat and a dog; i'd choose a cat. but there's something different bout the cats living in my neighbourhood.

they're exponentially increasing! im being serious. so much so that they seem to enjoy wrestling right outside my bedroom window on that metal roof thing that protects the kitchen place from rain. what's worse, they only seem to enjoy doing that laatteee into the night. just about round the time i sleep. the first time i heard them i seriously thought someone was trying to break in. they were so loud! and nikki wasnt there so i was extremely scared. i mean, there i was trying to sleep then all of a sudden: **CRASH.. meoooWWRRRRRR...** at first i thought that was it then suddenly: **BANG -CRASH-BANG.. MEOOOWWrrrrr..PFFT-PFFT-PFFT... MEEOOWRRRR!!! CRASHHHH** yes, it was like they were trying to form their own orchestra but making a hug mess out of it. i even put tamala on the bed then started praying.... im getting used to it now but its still driving me crazy.

eek! its nearly 6:30!! gotta study ^-^

the river's green today...

yes, when the sun hit it at a certain angle it actually almost looked all sparkly and everything. it was pretty. :) its not everyday you see the bankerohan river green. honestly. usually its all disgusting and brown making you wonder what people throw in it (i think i have a pretty good idea). but when the mud's not all upturned and everything n it is settled peacefully at the bottom of the river. it actually looks.. i dont know.. clean. which is nice. :) yeah.. my reflection for the day.

hmm, well, right now im in edp writing this blog.. again. haha, i actually enjoy edp (well, who doesn't? free internet time!!). i mean they actually dont block the friendster website! haha, so everyone's basically on it. plus, my teacher's realll nice. he is. sort of like ms. tamayo. only he doesnt pack us with hard stuff to do which is better. :) haha

anyways, i was reading over some of my blogs and i couldnt help but shudder... and not in a good way. i mean.. i was soo emo-yyyy!! erghh, i was seriously contemplating bout deleting some of em but then i thought 5 years in the future when i look back im sure i wouldv still wanted to know what i was thinking n stuff.. **char** you know? hahaha. well, you get the drift. who knows, maybe id have totally changed in the future er something. they say writing is very therapeutic. whatever that means.. so maybe itll help if i keep the entries ive already written instead of deleting em just cuz they make me cringe everytime i read em.. omgosh, yes, i have an analogy bout this.. i remember the day i took my kindergarten pic for the year book. when i saw it then i was like eww, i look weird but then like 10 years later, i looked at it again and thought my gosh, i was actually adorable then.. hasnt that ever happen to you? yeahh, i mean your opinion totally changing and stuff? yeah, so maybe in the future my entries wouldnt look so bad you know? hahaha, but i highly doubt it.

i mean like just the other day i was writing this llooonnngg post about how i miss highschool. but when i reread it and everything i got annoyed at myself (seriously, i did). i mean it was so melodramatic and everything. i mean i could've just said i miss highschool. i miss it alot. see?? i just summarized the 3 whole paragraphs into 2 short sentences. so no more emo-yyy-ness posts from me.. yep yep. ima stick to my hyper, mildly sarcastic, absolutely crazy self. yeahh, that should do it. :)

ok, ill only write emo-yy posts if i really feel bad about something. like really really REALLY. ok? yes.

dont worry, im not suffering from psychosis or anything. ok, maybe mild neurosis but its nothing too serious. :D

seriously.

anxieties

omgosh, you know that feeling you get before a test? or before a bunch of tests? that anxiety feeling that gives you that sudden rush of adrenaline enabling you to cram all the stuff you learned from the past weeks in one night? yes, that anxiety? yes, im experiencing it right now..

pre-lims are coming up.. and im sooo dead. i mean, ok, im pretty certain that some of the subjects ill do ok in but literature? oh boy.. uh-uh.. good luck to me on that one.. i know i should've told the teacher at the beginning of the school year that i totally suck in bisaya and stuff but nooooo.. i had to go and make the assumption that they would provide english translations.. why migel, why? how many times have i told you not to make assumptions? a zillion times.. yes, exactly and you still go and do it..

ok, this 'talking to myself' thing is the product of realizing my own stupidity. the slap-me-on-the-forehead-and-why-didn't-i-do-that-earlier kind of stupidity. yes, gosh.. i hope the teacher won't think im trying to come up with an excuse if i tell him tomorrow (have i mentioned my literature teacher is the only guy professor who isn't gay? and just so happens to have won a palangka award (is that how you spell it?).. ok, i dont know exactly what that is but when my substitute teacher said that to my class one lesson they all went "oohhhhhhhhhhh".. so im guessing its a big thing)



good luck to all of us on the upcoming pre-lims!!!! :S

**humdrum**

well, so right now im in edp.. we just finished this quiz.. haha, i was laughing cuz i thot it would be like a major longtest er something but it was just a 4 item quiz! haha, oh wel...

anyways, i dont know why but im feeling very very very hyper today... maybe its cuz i had a good night's sleep or something. well, its nice to wake up to my dad and sister's familiar competitive snoring in the moring (hey! that rhymed!)... wahehe, and everytime they visit suddenly the food gets all good and stuff! so yes, i think it was the pancakes that have gotten me all high.. hmm, ill figure it out later.

well, yesterday i failed in another literature quiz **sob**.. ok i dont know if i failed the other quizes but im SURE that i failed this one. i mean it. my sister was supposed to drop me to school and she was taking such a looonnnnggg time in getting ready and stuff. she insisted i wouldnt be late though.. but i was and by the time i got in they had already started and it was literature of all subjects.. plus the poem was in deep tagalog too!!!!! grRrRrRrRrRrRR... huhuhu.. i need help..

anyway, on another note (i dont know if its a happier one.. ahaha) some of my classmates said i remind them of rihanna! my gosh... now ive heard it al.. 2nd year it was ashanti.. 3rd year it was beyonce.. and now rihanna?!! people, just because im dark doesnt mean that i look like any of the pretty celebrity singers.. hahaha, i wonder wats next.. tina turner?? ooh, actually that would be soo cool. i like curly hair. maybe i should get a perm..





hahaha, no thanx

ooh, another thing.. im totally TOTALLY addicted to this quiz thing on the internet.. if you're bored and you have nothing else to do try it! tis extremely fun! and kinda annoying if you dont get the answers but overall its fun! xD haha, its http://www.addictinggames.com/theimpossiblequiz.html [yes, allana, i finally passed number 66!!!!!!!! my friend helped me... hahahha, the one bout the end of the world?? haha, thank god! after how many weeks! hahaha] anyways, just try it. :D its insanely logic (that's what they say in the instructions part) haha. well, good luck to yall and have a good day!

bring it on! =)

so school's getting harder.. yeah, it is.. but it's still bearable. :) yup2x and still having loadsa fun.. only some stuff are different. yeahh.. enumeration timmeee..

da da dummm

(oo) we had a debate in sociology.. and i think we were doing pretty well. now i know i seriously hate confrontations cuz during the debate everyone was like attacking one another.. i just wanted to stand up and say "i just want world peace!!" wahehehe, but no i didnt say that.. it would've been kinda funny though.. anyways, (corny-ness aside) i did recite once or twice and my points seemed real good! i mean like, no one retaliated so i thought i was doing a pretty good job until sir sabado was evaluating everyone.. he was like "my gosh, leslie is a very good debator **huge applause** and joshua was so witty with his wise cracks and everything **another huge applause** while i really admired mae's forceful voice whenever she recited **cheering and applause** while migel.. she's very friendly **... awwwww...**" what?!?!?! how could this be?!?! a friendly debator??? a debator is supposed to be full of power and authority and whatnot.. gak, and there i was thinking i was commanding attention with my "powerful" voice(ok fine, not powerful my heart was beating so hard i thought someone was bound to hear it) and "intelligent" remarks.. friendly.. sheesh

(oo) omgosh, how can bio lab be totally different from bio lecture?? i mean, i actually seriously enjoy bio lecture.. really i do, the teachers very interesting. but when it comes to bio lab its the total opposite! the activity looks easy and everything but when it comes down to the results.. dammn.. its hopeless. we did this whole activity on how ph level affects the activity of amylase (yes, sounds complicated) and we thought it'd be easy but every single set up (no matter what the pH was) was exactly the same! we thought we were doin something wrong but then all 6 groups had the same result.. all 6 groups.. and we're not stupid, i assure you that. then the teacher went and changed the whole activity process (well, she was the one who authored the activity manual so she had a right) but it still turned out the same. im scared... there's gonna be a huge chance we might all fail this subject.. gak

(oo) LITERATURE!! that's all i can say.. literature... why?? (hahaha, im actually enjoying this whole "exagged" (sp?) emotion thing going on here.. :P) well, yes, i honestly can say i suck in literature.. i seriously need help. i thought i was ok, i mean, i thought i could interpret the 'deeper meanings' of the poem but i guess i was wrong.. so wrong.. yet again, maybe its because all the poems we tackled so far are bisaya... oh lordie

(oo) dontcha just like my 'pig-snout' bullets? yes, i like em.. they look real cute

(oo) well, on the brighter side my sister's back! yippeeeee!! yes, she's gonna stay here till august.. acck, fun fun fun. :) my dad's back too but he has to leave on sunday :( but at least he's here. yippee!! :) hahaha

(oo) lastly... elections have been goin on for the past week... VOTE FOR EULA PERTURBOS!!! :) hahaha, yes, ive been helping with the campaign and everything. anyways, if anyone is reading this and is not from addu college but knows a few first years that go here.. please inform them :) (haha, ya right as if that's ever likely)

well, i think i put enough pig snouts for the day. :) take care people! keep smiling =)

prayer

i don't know what you want from me.. i don't know what the plan is.. i don't know what i'm supposed to learn from all this.. i thought that would be the last time.. and yet here i am torn between what i want to do and what i should do.. is there something i'm just not getting? is there something i'm supposed to be learning from this? from being constantly torn away from this sense of security i just barely seem to manage to build around myself with each time this has to happen? its getting harder and harder to believe that everything's gonna be ok... i'm tired.. its emotionally draining.. i know it's bad to ask why and yet, i want to.. my faith's not as strong as it was back then.. whatever happens.. please, give me faith.. i need it, to be able to go on cuz i feel it draining.. gradually.. it scares the hell out of me.. give me the strength and the belief that everything will turn out ok.. i know it will eventually, i just need the faith.. please help me..